I drive an '87 Ford Ranger. With its missing grille and rust spots, it looks pretty rough. It doesn't have a horn, AC or radio and only one of the windshield wipers works.
A fun part about the experience is that I have to start it with a screwdriver, because its ignition has been busted off (who knows the story). At first I was bad at starting it this way, but now I'm pretty quick. I know just where to put it, how to get the right leverage and how much gas to give it as I do. I know I should fix it.
Thing is, I'm used it.
I've already bought the parts. I have the tools. I just have to apply myself. Right now it's difficult to start in the dark and it's embarrassing... a couple hours of repair would be well worth it.
But I still haven't fixed it.
I rode in my dad's BMW recently. It was so refreshingly smooth and quiet. And—get this—he has one of those sweet keys that tells the car when you're in it. All Dad does is push a cute little button and the car is ready to go. No screwdriver involved.
It got me thinking about how many other areas of my life I'm using a screwdriver. I wonder if I'm doing unhealthy things just so I don't have to make an uncomfortable adjustment, just because what I'm doing is familiar.
How does this apply to my finances, relationships, my time? My sexuality, theology, the way I work?
If really zoom out, are there whole other paradigms waiting to be experienced? BMWs instead of broken pickup trucks.
And what if I'd never known an existence with a working ignition and keys? What if I thought of my screwdriver "this is just how it is"? I have a feeling this image would be even closer to the human experience we're all working through.
Unware of the full, functional, healthy, beautiful life God intends for us, we become familiar with the dysfunctional (and even get good at it).
In the end it's exciting, because He's commited to revealing, guiding and empowering us with grace all along the way.
Holy Spirit, illuminate places in me that I don't even realize I'm settling for a crappy screwdriver ignition. Please highlight areas that need change, healing, restoration, upgrade. Point the way to life. Amen.