There I was in the car yelling at God again.
For me it’s act of trust. A rhythm if I’m honest. I go to Him when I’m angry and just go ahead blame Him for the situation. I know you usually don’t win an argument with God, but I like to get it out of my system sooner rather than later. I can’t even remember who or what I was upset with. I just remember the street I was on and I remember inviting God there.
C.S. Lewis pointed out that living life with the Holy Spirit is a lot like a dance. It’s not so much a miss or hit thing, or an on/off thing... it’s more like two people learning how to move together. It takes a lot of practicing and learning and maybe some stepping on toes.
See, it’s two-way. God means for your will to be involved. He doesn’t mean for you to lay down as an empty shell so that He can cram God stuff in like play-doh. Nope. He made humans beautiful and good, just like Him, and He’s in the business of bringing them to life, redeeming all the nasty bits.
Saint Paul talked a lot about “walking by the Spirit” which sounds awfully Casper The Friendly Ghost if you ask me, but I’m convinced it’s way more normal than that.
I think about a married couple. They talk. They talk about deep stuff, fun stuff, sad stuff, angry stuff and all the stuff in between. That’s how you grow. That sharing is the substance of relationship.
And I have this hunch that God is similar.
That God isn’t put off by your regular life, but may want to be a part of it. In fact, I have a sneaking suspicion that God wants to be invited into every crevice of your mundane existence. He wants to be a part of when you drive, when you work, when you work out, when you cry, when you eat Frosted Flakes if that’s your thing. Yes, the Holy spirit helped do a lot of crazy things in Old Testament and the Holy Spirit partakes in the miraculous today. But all those regular bits are pretty cool too. What is more: I’m convinced you’ll be more in tune and ready for the miraculous if you can just get good at walking with God in every sphere of life.
I also want to mention emotional peaks.
What the crap is an “emotional peak”?
I’m so glad you asked. They sound like this:
“I’m over it.”
“I’ll never recover.”
“I hate him.”
“That’s so irritating.”
“I want to die.”
“They don’t deserve forgiveness.”
“I feel so dark.”
The list goes on. It’s all the moments you think your life sucks or is too much. I think a lot of people just ride the wave and don’t really think to invite God along.
But I promise you that God wants to ride those waves with you.
In Christianity we hear much speech about surrender – that we ought to “surrender our lives to God” and such. I think that’s true. I’d just like to add to it that often the first step is extending an invitation to God. Welcoming Him into all the nuances of soul. He wants permission, see.
So here’s a simple prayer I pray over and over (especially during ‘emotional peaks’):
Holy Spirit, I invite you into this place.
Pretty complicated right? But, you’ll be shocked at how God will meet you there.
Now, don’t expect God to just swoop in and wave a magic wand and fix everything. You may not even feel much at all. He’s usually just going to join you in the process. But He really digs it, because this process is a beautiful communion-building experience for both parties involved.
One more pro tip before I go (you already know it):
The darker the night, the more chance for communion.
I know. I hate it too. This idea that God becomes most vivid to us through times of suffering, that we find His embrace most when we’re the most desperate. Believe you me, I would change it if I could, but for some reason God, who is infinitely wise, has chosen to have it that way.
Spirit of God, third Person of the Holy Trinity, I invite you into all the small mundane parts of my life — the ones I least expect to see you in. I also want to invite you into the places that frustrate me most, that hurt the most, that are the most difficult. I ask you to meet me there.